Why oh why...

I continue to sabotage myself and eat things that do not agree with me, then expect spa treatments to work miracles I'll never know....why would someone work so hard to maintain an unhappy weight?!?
Somebody please tell me....

Unbelievable

i didnt make it to Wm last night bc i didnt have my earbuds for my ipod.  HOWEVER, i weighed myself this moring and am 10#s down.  As long as i stick to my 1100 calorie day i will continue to lose.  In the morning tho, it's hard to get going and my stomach hurts.  This also happened after my surgery.  i had started taking my showers at night, that will help with this.
I know this seems unbelievable to others, but since my surgery, that;s how it works for me.  40# by my birthday is doable.

Still on Track....

I weighed myself this morning before getting ready for work, and amazingly I did not gain any weight from all those Christmas cookies.  I am staying on track.  Back into walking again, altho it's too hot this afternoon to walk.  Hopefully, I can get my fat butt off the couch to walk.  I am going to WM after work, so maybe i can count that walking.  LOL.  I was really good today.  i kept track of everything I ate.  I did not eat much at all but more importantly it was all healthy.  The real challenge is the evening at home. 

Crap Christmas cookies!

12/24/2014 - Seriously I already ate too many cookies and I've only been up for an hour

Off track :-(

I walk into my mother's house, there are chocolate covered pretzels and cookies.  I have had some of all of it. 
Not good. 

No endorphins

I have no endorphins.  I am working from home today, fridy, and the 31st and 2nd.  I probably wont walk.  i never do at home.  went out to lunch twice this week but managed to not gain weight.  that is vry hard to do.  i am taking walking clothes to m&d's, i'm sure we will walk there.

hopefully i can keep this going and not only not gain but continue to lose as well.

Work day walk

I walked twice today.  the first one i increased it by .11.  wahoo. 

I managed to lose one more pound over the weekend.  i am very lazy on the weekends tho.  I do not walk at all.  i need to start doing so.  i am giving most of my candy and goodies to my parents ;-).  i am going to their house for the holiday.  i am sure i will walk with them everyday prob.

where are the endorphins?!?

that good feeling you're supposed to get from working out? and eating right?!?  ok, so at least I worked out it is Christmas after all....

it would appear I'm at THAT AGE...you know the one, when you reach you reach a certain age and your metabolism starts shutting down, and that little tummy bulge that wasn't there last year is referred to the trainer as hormonal...as if this whole losing weight thing wasn't already hard enough.  I've spent my entire life just trying to get my metabolism working in the right direction to begin with...no my age is working against me?!?  really?!?

I don't really eat all that much, I try to eat the right things, before my last goal (20 pounds by a cruise over thanksgiving) I was working out every other day, any where from 4+ miles on weight days, 7+ miles on cardio days, and not only did I not lose the 20 pounds, I gained 5 =0(

$800 on the cruise for miracle spa treatments and i'm no further along that I was before I went...

my knees hurt(history of injuries, surgeries, and screws, thought I'd add that in for dramatic effect), and to top it off I'm just so damned tired my muscles quiver after walking up a flight of stairs and I can't always catch my breath,,,where is the pay off?  what is the point?  and why do you ask, do I kill myself?!? because I want to be loved,  it was a cruel person who put it into our heads as young girls that loved was directly proportionately to size, the larger you are, the less there is....love is for the beautiful people, and to be beautiful, you must conform by the illogical standards of the fashion magazines and Hollywood...how does anyone ever believe there is world wide acceptance if you can't accept yourself, no matter how hard you try?!?  where is the love?!?
=0(

Keep it up.

Obviously we know exercise and eating right is the key to losing weight.  I have been trying to stick to 1100 calorie day, per my bariatric Dr. And walking at least a mile a day, hoping to increase every few weeks. 
It has paid off,  5 pounds so far.  I just need to keep my wits about me.

Ugh it doesn't fit

Twice this week I ended up with clothes inside out on my bed after going thru clothes that r too small. I can't wear more than have of my jeans. 

Well today i was unable to walk the normal 1.2 miles.  I only walked .95 mile.  And today we had our huge company luncheon.  I guess it's ok since i walked at all.

the last two days i walked for a total of 1.2 miles.  i hope i can continue that.  today is the company luncheon.  there will be an over abundance of food that will have NO will power not to eat.
keep the progress going............

ok, i know its probably water weight but i lost a couple of pounds.  All that does is motivate me to continue.
keep it up.  keep it up.

I'm not hungry.

I'm not hungry.  I'm not hungry. I'm not hungry.   I'm not hungry.  I'm not hungry.  I'm not hungry. I'm not hungry.   I'm not hungry.  I'm not hungry.  I'm not hungry. I'm not hungry.   I'm not hungry.
I'm not hungry.  I'm not hungry. I'm not hungry.   I'm not hungry. 

Let's go......

ok i have been able to not shop with some withdrawal.  my next goal is to lose the 40#s i gained over the last year bc of my back.  I want to lose it by my 45th birthday June 25th.

i am the heaviest i have been since my surgery.  i do not want to go back to my weight / size from before.

starting now is going to be very hard being that it is the holiday season.  As i am typing this post, i was invited to have dessert from the potluck to which i was not invited.  I grabbed a slice of chocolate chip pie.  

Guess i will be starting tomorrow.  :-(  i hope i don't continue to do that.  i need to stick to this.